It had nothing to do with a hesitation to make a hospital visit, because I do it often. I don’t have issues with the discomfort of difficult medical and emotional situations involved with hospital visits. Not that I like to see people in the hospital; I’d rather visit them in their homes when they’re feeling great, but we all know that’s not always possible. People get sick, and they need support. I’m honored and humbled when I get to briefly walk with someone through a trying experience.
No, it wasn’t about the patient’s situation; it was about my discomfort in a different area. I was concerned with the turmoil I might walk into because of some tenuous family relationships. I anticipated the possibility of significant tension with a family member, and I just didn’t want to risk it.
But God had another plan.
When I received a text that the person needed some visits that day, I could quickly dismiss the possibility. After all, my day was swamped. I couldn’t possibly make the necessary adjustments. But then my lunch date cancelled, and I knew…
After taking care of some responsibilities at church, I began the dilly-dally, doing some unimportant things. I messed with my phone, returned some emails, made some copies I didn’t need to make that day, and so on. After about thirty minutes, the secretary asked, “Um, Susan…what are you hanging around for so long?” Not that she minded me being there. She’s just used to me running around, not hanging around. I told her the truth.
“I know I’m supposed to do something, but I don’t want to, so I’m waiting around to see if God will change his mind.”
She chuckled, “And how is that working for you?”
Okay, okay. Off to the hospital I went.
It was a fantastic visit. I was so glad I went. There were not issues, but even if there had been, I have no doubt God would have given me whatever I needed for the situation.
I don’t know why I think I can play games with God and come out ahead. He always wins.
What are you supposed to do today that you’re trying to avoid? Get to it. God isn’t going to change his mind.