Sometimes I ask God for things or results just to help me feel better.

I recently caught myself telling God something like this: “I trust you and know you will provide. And I’m asking you to set this up by the end of the day for my peace of mind.”

I am okay with being specific in prayer but I knew I was praying with contradiction:

I trust you and know you will provide, God.

Now, let me set some benchmarks for you.

I chuckled at myself.

Sorry, God. I can be a bit bossy at times. I’m working on that. Mostly, you’re working on that.

Wanting God to help me feel better never trumps trusting God to help me become better. Growth is always better than comfort.

But it isn’t easy.