I’ve thought about stopping, or at least cutting way back, on this blog many times in the last several months. Writing something daily is challenging to say the least. I rarely get to interact with people who are reading…if they are reading.
In many ways, I enjoy the process. It spurs me to be more observant, sensitive, reflective, and consistent in how I live my faith in the real world…which, after all, is where we all live, not in this contrived contraption-place-space-or-whatever-it-is called: the internet. I’ve prayed about it. Others have prayed about it. I haven’t gotten a clear answer during my alone time, yet when I’m just about at the point where my finger hovers over the “deactivate” button, I get surprising comments and encouragement.
- “I read you every morning!” from someone I hadn’t seen in over a year.
- A sudden unexplained jump in readership.
- “This is exactly what I needed to read today. Thanks for sharing.”
- A Timehop reminder of someone’s encouragement.
- A story about someone I didn’t even know read the blog sharing a post at a large women’s event.
So, I continue a bit longer. I’m still not clear about continuing, but I am even less clear about quitting.
Sometimes we stay stuck in something just because we’ve done it for so long. I don’t want that to happen, whether it’s about this blog or something else in my life. At the same time, I don’t want to let go of something I’m not supposed to let go of yet. Sometimes we continue without knowing why. That’s different than continuing because it’s the easy thing to do. Sometimes persevering, especially when we don’t understand the reasons behind it, are most difficult.
Oh, wait. I do know the reason behind it. Because God has prompted me to persevere for now.
That’s good enough reason and understanding for me.
At what crossroads are you standing? Is God being clear, or is He prompting you along just an inch or two at a time?
Be thankful for His presence, even if you’re not certain of the specifics or the timing or the purpose. Perhaps the purpose is simply listening to and responding obediently to Him.