“I just can’t commit right now, because I’m just not comfortable with people depending on me.”
It’s not that I don’t understand the person’s response. It wasn’t the first time I had heard it. But after hearing it several times (across time), it struck me as odd. After all, people already depend on her. She is married, with kids, and a job. And I’m confident she let them down at times. We all do.
I think what she really meant was, “I’m worried about letting people down. I’ll feel like a failure, and I just can’t handle that.” Maybe particularly at church? I mean, don’t we all want to be reliable members of the body of believers around us? God says we’re all members of the same body and we all need each other. Maybe it’s just safer to step back and let others overcompensate for us. But that’s not the model God gives us.
If we don’t live up to our own expectations or even someone else’s, it doesn’t mean we’re not living up to God’s. At the very least, our shortcomings definitely don’t surprise Him. Neither does our hesitation…or our laziness.
Whatever it is that is getting in the way of serving, we need to get beyond it. We cannot say yes to everything, nor should we, but we also shouldn’t say no because of our own insecurities. All we have to do is offer everything we have, even our insecurities and weaknesses. That’s all God asks.
It is enough.
Because God is enough.