When you were young, what did you want to be when you grew up? Not just your profession, but also…what did you want? Did you ever say or feel “I can’t wait until I’m a grown up!”?

I wanted to be my own boss. I wanted to make my own decisions. And I wanted the confidence to know what I wanted and what to choose. I didn’t want any confusion or uncertainty.

And then I grew up. Okay, so I’m still growing up…but I officially became a “grown up.” Now I get to make my own decisions. So many decisions that some days I just want the questions and problems to go away. I want someone to make the decisions for me. Just having decisions to make and being able to make them on my own doesn’t make me a boss. It makes me responsible. I thought being the boss meant having control. Not really. It means having balance while discerning, yielding, and being disciplined.

And that confidence thing I thought I’d magically get as I grew up? Not so much. I might not be insecure about the same childhood issues I had, but I have plenty of insecurities as an adult, too!

Maybe I don’t want to grow up after all.

The truth is, I do want to grow up. It’s just that being grown up means something different to me now. It’s about maturing. It’s a process. It’s not about what I get to do or don’t get to do. It’s not about control. It’s about growth.

What I thought I wanted…I’ve reassessed. It’s not that I don’t want decisions and security. It’s that now I know yielding is more important. It’s not about being boss and having control. It’s about knowing God as my boss and yielding control to him. Letting him guide my decisions. Letting him define my security.

It’s okay to dream and be aware of what you want when you grow up. Just keep in mind that God’s the one you’re growing up toward. Yield to him. Make decisions for him. Step out in faith and be bold for him. That’s what growing up – in faith – is all about.

I mean that you have been saved by grace through believing. You did not save yourselves; it was a gift from God. It was not the result of your own efforts, so you cannot brag about it. God has made us what we are. In Christ Jesus, God made us to do good works, which God planned in advance for us to live our lives doing. Ephesians 2:8-10