Drowning and Living Deeply

There was a day many months ago when I felt as if I was drowning. And I felt as if God was the one pulling me into the deep waters and drowning me. I’d stayed very close to him, so it didn’t feel odd to cry out to him with a, “Hey, dude! What are you doing to me?”

With absolutely no hesitation, I heard the answer, “I’m not drowning you. You’re drowning yourself. Just chill. I made you to float.”

Oh.

Right.

Leave it to God to reality check me.

I felt his pull because he was close, not because he was drowning me. And I felt as if I was drowning because I was flailing around and exhausting myself. I was taking on more water and expending more energy than was necessary.

I took a few breaths and calmed down.

And I floated.

This life with God seems so counter-intuitive at times. Yet it is so right.

It only gets stronger
It only goes deeper
My head’s underwater, but somehow I
Can finally breathe
It only gets stronger
It only goes deeper
My heart is on fire, and this love is
Setting me free

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